So Drastic..

It’s kinda awful when things you less likely expect change so drastically…

After that fateful afternoon of Mike’s accident, things have really changed. He became indifferent and strangely aloof (which he never was. I’ve known him to be a jolly and good-natured man). He wanted to spend the whole day inside our room. He also prefers to be alone most of the time. I have encouraged him to take early morning stroll on a wheelchair (he still finds it difficult and painful to walk) to get the early morning warmth of the sun but he just sit in bed as if hearing nothing. Mike has also become temperamental. Petty things can trigger his anger and he will just shout at you if he wanted to.

One time, a friend and his wife visited him but he just pretended to be asleep. Sometimes he doesn’t want to talk to people – even to me. Still, it is rude for him not to talk to our visitors. I just hope they will just understand him.

On the first week after his accident, I find it easy to deal with his behavior. I told myself that Mike is just adjusting to his condition and is having a hard-time accepting that he will be in bed for a number of weeks. He will not be able to ride, go to work and enjoy his free time. Aside from that he was not used to being dependent on other people. But now, he has to. I just appease myself by thinking that he will recover fully - in time.

He’s very unusual now. I don’t know if I can still handle the situation well. Ryan, our common friend, told me in jest to load more patience. I think that’s what I’m doin’ now. And I do hope I can still deal with it for long…